From Steve Brown:
Recently, a friend of mine gave me an illustration
by Ron Hutchcraft regarding how some young people in Alaska learn about
responsibility.
Do you know what they do? When a child does something bad,
they put a rock in his or her backpack. When they do something good, they
take one out. The better they are, the lighter the backpack. On the other
hand, the backpack can become really heavy if a child is especially bad.
As I read that, I thought, I've been doing that for most of my life.
There was a time when I thought I could keep even by getting more of
the rocks out of the bag than I put in it. That was when I was younger.
Those were the days when I thought that if I could just get the rocks out
of my backpack I would be a fit and pure vessel for Christ to use. All I
had to do was work at it and then, once the task was accomplished, I would see "thousands saved and hundreds healed."
For years I was a rock counter. I spent most of my time checking the
backpack. I didn't notice that my legs were getting bowed and my back was
bending from the weight. I just kept trying to get the rocks out. I started
looking like a worn out cowboy. However, I found that, if you tried really
hard, you could keep your back straight so that people wouldn't notice.
But, man, it does take a toll trying to hide the fact that the backpack is
killing you.
That's when God said: You know, you don't have to carry that backpack anymore.
What do you mean? I thought that was my purpose in life. Don't you want
me to be holy and obedient and stuff? This was your idea, not mine.
Wasn't my idea.
Don't you want me to be righteous?
That would be nice, but you're going about it all wrong. I don't know
if you've noticed, but the backpack is a lot heavier than it used to be.
If getting the rocks out of that backpack is your purpose in life, you're
not doing a very good job of it.
But I'm working hard.
I know.
Well?
You don't have to work so hard at it. In fact, you're spending half
of your life working on getting those rocks out of the backpack and you're
not living anymore. You're missing a lot of really good things I planned
for you. I would rather you just came to me. I can take care of the rocks.
That is what the cross was about.
You mean that you will take the rocks out of the backpack and make it
lighter?
No, I don't want the rocks. I want the backpack.
What? You're joking, right?
No, I'm not joking. I don't joke about something this serious. I don't
joke about things that destroy people I love.
But, Lord, I've had this thing a long time. In fact, I've sort of grown
accustomed to it. Besides, if I gave you the backpack, how could I measure
whether or not I was pleasing you?
I'm already pleased...and it has nothing to do with the rocks or lack
of them in your backpack. Tell me, what would you do with your life if you
didn't have to spend all of your time working with those rocks?
I'm not sure. Maybe go to a movie or take a day off or something. I might
just be quiet and spend more time with you. Maybe even tell some people
about your kindness and love. I guess I would even tell them about this
conversation.
Then, child, do it with joy...and give the backpack to me.
And that's how I got rid of the backpack...well, almost. The fact is
that I sometimes go to the throne and take it back. When I do that, I think
God shakes his head and blushes a bit. But I don't keep it very long anymore.
It's hard to dance with all that weight.
Paul wrote, "There is therefore now no condemnation to those who
are in Christ Jesus, who do not walk according to the flesh, but according
to the Spirit" (Romans 8:1, NKJV).
The great thing about not being
under condemnation anymore is that the Spirit starts doing his work. In
fact, I'll bet if I started carrying that backpack again, it would have less
rocks in it than it used to have. Maybe not. But I'm not going to check.
He told me I didn't have to.
Did you hear the story about the old man with a heavy load in his sack,
walking down the road? A farmer came by in his wagon, felt sorry for the
old man and gave him a ride. The man climbed up on the wagon and thanked
the farmer. Then the farmer noticed that the man still carried the sack.
"Why don't you put that sack down?" asked the farmer. "It's
got to be heavy."
"You are so kind," the old man said. "But I wouldn't want
to impose on your kindness. You shouldn't have to carry me and the sack."
Silly? Of course it is. But it is no more silly than the way you carry
that dumb backpack around with all those rocks. Why don't you just let him
carry it all?
Of the beasts of the field, and of the fishes of the sea, and of all foods that are acceptable in my sight you may eat, but not in the living room. Of the hoofed animals, broiled or ground into burgers, you may eat, but not in the living room. Of the cloven-hoofed animal, plain or with cheese, you may eat, but not in the living room. Of the cereal grains, of the corn and of the wheat and of the oats, and of all the cereals that are of bright color and unknown provenance you may eat, but not in the living room. Of the quiescently frozen dessert and of all frozen after-meal treats you may eat, but absolutely not in the living room. Of the juices and other beverages, yes, even of those in sippy-cups, you may drink, but not in the living room, neither may you carry such therein. Indeed, when you reach the place where the living room carpet begins, of any food or beverage there you may not eat, neither may you drink.
But if you are sick, and are lying down and watching something, then may you eat in the living room.
And if you are seated in your high chair, or in a chair such as a greater person might use, keep your legs and feet below you as they were. Neither raise up your knees, nor place your feet upon the table, for that is an abomination to me. Yes, even when you have an interesting bandage to show, your feet upon the table are an abomination, and worthy of rebuke. Drink your milk as it is given you, neither use on it any utensils, nor fork, nor knife, nor spoon, for that is not what they are for; if you will dip your blocks in the milk, and lick it off, you will be sent away. When you have drunk, let the empty cup then remain upon the table, and do not bite it upon its edge and by your teeth hold it to your face in order to make noises in it sounding like a duck; for you will be sent away.
When you chew your food, keep your mouth closed until you have swallowed, and do not open it to show your brother or your sister what is within; I say to you, do not so, even if your brother or your sister has done the same to you. Eat your food only; do not eat that which is not food; neither seize the table between your jaws, nor use the raiment of the table to wipe your lips. I say again to you, do not touch it, but leave it as it is. And though your stick of carrot does indeed resemble a marker, draw not with it upon the table, even in pretend, for we do not do that, that is why. And though the pieces of broccoli are very like small trees, do not stand them upright to make a forest, because we do not do that, that is why. Sit just as I have told you, and do not lean to one side or the other, nor slide down until you are nearly slid away. Heed me; for if you sit like that, your hair will go into the syrup. And now behold, even as I have said, it has come to pass.
Laws Pertaining to Dessert
For we judge between the plate that is unclean and the plate that is clean, saying first, if the plate is clean, then you shall have dessert. But of the unclean plate, the laws are these: If you have eaten most of your meat, and two bites of your peas with each bite consisting of not less than three peas each, or in total six peas, eaten where I can see, and you have also eaten enough of your potatoes to fill two forks, both forkfuls eaten where I can see, then you shall have dessert. But if you eat a lesser number of peas, and yet you eat the potatoes, still you shall not have dessert; and if you eat the peas, yet leave the potatoes uneaten, you shall not have dessert, no, not even a small portion thereof. And if you try to deceive by moving the potatoes or peas around with a fork, that it may appear you have eaten what you have not, you will fall into iniquity. And I will know, and you shall have no dessert.
On Screaming
Do not scream; for it is as if you scream all the time. If you are given a plate on which two foods you do not wish to touch each other are touching each other, your voice rises up even to the ceiling, while you point to the offense with the finger of your right hand; but I say to you, scream not, only remonstrate gently with the server, that the server may correct the fault. Likewise if you receive a portion of fish from which every piece of herbal seasoning has not been scraped off, and the herbal seasoning is loathsome to you, and steeped in vileness, again I say, refrain from screaming. Though the vileness overwhelm you, and cause you a faint unto death, make not that sound from within your throat, neither cover your face, nor press your fingers to your nose. For even now I have made the fish as it should be; behold, I eat of it myself, yet do not die.
Concerning Face and Hands
Cast your countenance upward to the light, and lift your eyes to the hills, that I may more easily wash you off. For the stains are upon you; even to the very back of your head, there is rice thereon. And in the breast pocket of your garment, and upon the tie of your shoe, rice and other fragments are distributed in a manner wonderful to see. Only hold yourself still; hold still, I say. Give each finger in its turn for my examination thereof, and also each thumb. Lo, how iniquitous they appear. What I do is as it must be; and you shall not go hence until I have done.
Various Other Laws, Statutes, and Ordinances
Bite not, lest you be cast into quiet time. Neither drink of your own bath water, nor of bath water of any kind; nor rub your feet on bread, even if it be in the package; nor rub yourself against cars, nor against any building; nor eat sand.
Leave the cat alone, for what has the cat done, that you should so afflict it with tape? And hum not that humming in your nose as I read, nor stand between the light and the book. Indeed, you will drive me to madness. Nor forget what I said about the tape.
Complaints and Lamentations
O my children, you are disobedient. For when I tell you what you must do, you argue and dispute hotly even to the littlest detail; and when I do not accede, you cry out, and hit and kick. Yes, and even sometimes do you spit, and shout "stupid-head" and other blasphemies, and hit and kick the wall and the molding thereof when you are sent to the corner. And though the law teaches that no one shall be sent to the corner for more minutes than he has years of age, yet I would leave you there all day, so mighty am I in anger. But upon being sent to the corner you ask straightaway, "Can I come out?" and I reply, "No, you may not come out." And again you ask, and again I give the same reply. But when you ask again a third time, then you may come out.
Hear me, O my children, for the bills they kill me. I pay and pay again, even to the twelfth time in a year, and yet again they mount higher than before. For our health, that we may be covered, I give six hundred and twenty talents twelve times in a year; but even this covers not the fifteen hundred deductible for each member of the family within a calendar year. And yet for ordinary visits we still are not covered, nor for many medicines, nor for the teeth within our mouths. Guess not at what rage is in my mind, for surely you cannot know.
For I will come to you at the first of the month and at the fifteenth of the month with the bills and a great whining and moan. And when the month of taxes comes, I will decry the wrong and unfairness of it, and mourn with wine and ashtrays, and rend my receipts. And you shall remember that I am that I am: before, after, and until you are twenty-one. Hear me then, and avoid me in my wrath, O children of me.
Steve Brown replied: "I tell you when I read that, and I am an adult and I can eat what I want, There is something when I read that piece that wells up in me and makes me angry because that's not a Father, that's a policeman. And that's the issue. Once God was our policeman until, because of the blood of Christ, he became our father. The difference in the Pharisee and the Christian is not in what is done, it is why it's done. One does it for a righteous and wrathful God and one does it for a loving father."
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